It has been almost two weeks since my last post, and there’s a lot of things happened in that two weeks.
Let’s just say It was a series of an unfortunate event going on here, so here’s a little update on what happened.
While I’m writing this blog post, another crazy thing just happened. It was the “Jakarta Blast and Gunfire Tragedy”, so let’s take some minutes to pray and hope that this pointless madness will stop soon, not just in my country but in other nations too.
Let’s get back to the main topic, apparently I’m in my hometown on Central Java (Since I didn’t renew my working contract due to my plan to pursued MA), working some design project and tailoring a series of portfolio for my MA program, and the due date is this April (quite panic now 😱).
Going back to your hometown should be exciting right? But in my case It wasn’t that exciting, in fact, It’s quite confusing.
This is the first time in the 24 year history of my life I felt like perfect strangers in the place where I used to scream and shout happily.
Simply because I haven’t been here full time since 2009-2015. Around that time, I went to capital city “Jakarta” for my degree and to work soon after graduated, and when I finally had a chance to went back to a place that raised me, there was no one here that I know except my family and relatives.
All of my close friends was somewhere out there, and I’m not sure if we still on this “Close Friends” terms since we lost contact and I don’t know if they could recognise me now:-/.
Not a big deal “nothing last forever”, It’s funny how people who you know forever could be a perfect stranger in just a blink of an eye, and someone that you meet just a couple of minutes turns out to be in perfect sync with you.
Well, to be honest, It wasn’t that hard to adjust with all of this “perfect strangers” thing since It was my hometown, after all, another reason is that I still have my beloved “partner” that I could spend my time.
What made things complicated is the fact that I couldn’t found a store that sells an art supply that I need for my portfolio, the nearest art and design supply would be on next town which is two or three-hour drive from where I am now:-/.
The other things are, things around me start crumbling down.
It began with the “midnight cement shower” from next door construction that struck down into Our office room that destroyed most of the electronics hardware (Computer server, CPU, Monitor, Printer, and Scanner, etc.). And files.
After that, my beloved “partner” start going crazy and glitchy. My relatives and college agreed that maybe I should look for another one since I have been with him for seven years and It’s only natural that those things start happening now, but I have another opinion about that.
Finally, things reach Its peak last Friday when I was on tight deadlines.
My “partner” feels that he couldn’t keep up with all of the crazy hectic design works and life that I’m on right now, and eventually decided to kill himself with a shock wave :-/.
It was a total disaster that happened in an absolute wrong time and places, where I need my computer, scanner, and printer the most to made the artwork and later test on the sizes and things before It produced (I know I was quite attached to electronics and gadget, simply because I lived from this stuff).
It was quite frustrating, because the due date for the MA application draws near, and all of those series of an unfortunate event made me think for a while. It seems like the universe isn’t on my side for a while :-/.
But screwed It all now, I already made my choices to do the MA no matter how hard and how crazy things are going to be, It always worth a try, after all, nothing good comes in an easy way right.
“Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass, It is about learning to dance in the rain.”
We were tied to our fate and destiny, a series of choices and chances that shaped our daily life, and made all of us a selector.
Every day, every hour, and every minute we made a selection, a simple decision about what to do and what we will be heading to in our life, It was either to breath or to die, to swim or to sink, to eat or to starve, and to fight or to surrender.
My selection is to breathe, to dance with the rhythm of stormy rain no matter how harsh and hard It is because I am the master of my fate and the captain of my destiny.
What about you guys? How things went lately, did you guys face any difficulties, and have you made your selection this year?
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